At The Gatta

Its been long since I scribbled a post. A 7-day rural camp with the first years and as usual a aptitude and attitude adjusting endeavour for many... Going there to teach, I was humbled more than ever as a learner; such beautiful dynamics among the group. However, in a no Man's land, no wires, no mobile network, no milk, no grocery, no medical shop... almost nothing! Life was peaceful.

Towards the end of the camp, a sudden reminder of the car, laptop, mobile etc., that soon I will have to end up connecting with, disoriented me so much... those unnecessities of life. Duh!

Life can be lived so simple and so easy as well; and I got a taste of that as well. From the place we were stationed, I could see some luscious, dreamy mountains in peaceful slumber... a million pages can be written atop those peaks I felt. A million and more...

FOr a week, I did not touch money and back to reality, I had to and felt like it meant nothing. Communism or what they call primitive Communism was so good... felt good. Now back to the money world, fake smiles, compulsive emotional displays, reactions, response and all those nurtured creations of humanity... the ticket to belong! With noises from the world cut, in silence, voices from within was audible... writing too now feels loud and I aspire silence once more.

The nature of the beast still holds firm and only reassured lies, knowing more than anyone else does that nothing is stronger than its weakest link.

Bottomline: "We are not human beings on a spiritual journey. We are spiritual beings on a human journey." Stephen Convey

A Circuit Board a.k.a Relationship(s)

Strength, love, compassion, passion and what not that comes with relationships? So much so alongwith... betrayal, distrust, longing and crazed frenzies that beget lust in our search for that eternal relationship chiseled to perfection in a world where nothing remains constant except change.

Everything and everyone for a while… just a while like a fading smile and a twinkle in the eye… everything for a moment. Just a moment for you and I. Rusting, decaying and deliberately rotting and what do you do? Watch! Stand and watch this brutal murder helplessly. Reason why at times it is better to fade away into a world of isolation rather than pass through this ruthless slaughter with vivid memories of the paralyzing past. A circuit board-like we are! One short circuit and the whole system gets busted.

That’s why I always feel as I say that there shall be no fight as long as two can avoid the first.

Is isolation the cure for cramped-up relationships? Are relationships that easy for one to step in and out of? Everyone needs space? What if each other needs this space in turn? Wouldn’t we be obliged to give that right to the one we are with if it were rendered to us too earlier? What if we want company when the other wants the personal space and would it be right of us to ask for company and nudge and nag when we asked for our personal space without any consideration of the other when we wanted it? That is when we all will have our space except everything else we want, wont we?

If getting into a relationship makes us seek our own space and one has to get desperate for that, what is the point of “coming together" in a relationship? We might as well be better off without one and without the one. Relationships are supposed to grate one off the world of loneliness and if relationships itself is the cause for one to feel lonely, whats the point being in one? Worthless I believe…

Bottomline: Nevertheless it moves and people will not miss a chance to prove that they are fools in love. Its alright to be a fool in love yet caution be taken to ensure that one does not get fooled with love.